So I’ve been kind of down since yesterday. We are doing a series called “Stress Less” at church. Yesterday one of the points mentioned was if you have trouble with alcohol or gambling then you should just stay away from bars or casinos (not sure if he specifically mentioned gambling but it’s the same concept).
As an obese person I can’t stay away from food. Could I cook at home? Absolutely yes but as a single person, how lonely will it be if I cook at home every night. I eat out all the time for two reasons. The first is convenience. I have trouble standing and cleaning up the mess after. The second is that even if eating alone at a restaurant seems lonely, it really is not. You get to watch the people around you, you interact with the servers and staff. There is companionship even in a round about way.
TimeHop also showed me memories from 2 years ago. I was almost at my lowest in a long time. I have gained 130 lbs back since then.
I’m not saying having an alcohol or gambling addiction is not as bad as a food addiction. Those can affect many more people then obesity but sometimes it just seems impossible to really lose weight. Especially as a single person.
We had Trunk or Treat at church last night and I literally started to cry at the beginning because I was trying to find a spot to park my car and had to move 2 times before I got in the right place. That was a serious over reaction. Then this morning I have eaten nothing but candy.
I’m supposed to be losing weight because I put a down payment on an Alaskan Cruise for next June and I want to be able to fit in the plane seat without having to buy two seats. I have put 10 pounds on since that point.
I’ll end this post now because I don’t know the answer. Please continue to pray for me as I am able to help myself and there are so many others who have issues that they have no control over.
Weight Goes Bye 